Jan 9, 2008

Define the Mundane.

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(WARNING: Really long post. I hope you read it anyways though)



Fear:

–noun
1. a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.



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It's funny how a small little word can mess up a life.
I've talked about this before("Resolutions" blog a few days ago). It's important though. I don't talk about it just so I have something to talk about. It's a serious issue that I've thought about a lot lately, and unfortunately, a lot of people struggle with, including myself.

Think about it... what causes your own fear? Family? Friends? Work? You're past? It could be anything, really.
For the past week, or so, I've been talking to a girl about what is going on to create so much fear in her life(Her name will remain anonymous). She's very scared of her family. It seems that her worst fear is being hurt, physically, or emotionally. Frankly, I know where she's coming from, which is why I'm trying my best to help her.
My worst fear is abuse. I've been hurt before. I know what it's like. Yes, it could have been worse, but it still hurts. It's a huge battle to not let that fear take over. I'm seeing this same thing in her. She's afraid to talk. She's afraid to let people know she has a mask.

For those of you who didn't know, I was depressed for the majority of 2007. I was being verbally, and emotionally hurt by my family, and by some of my friends. Eventually, I found myself with a great fear of talking to people about it. I didn't like to talk about it. I didn't want people to see me depressed. I tried to hide that. I was too afraid to ask for help.
As I kept these secrets, people began to notice a change in me. Some of them noticed I wasn't myself. Some of them didn't see anything at all.
I held anger and sadness for so long, which caused me to be hurt more easily by things that wouldn't normally depress me. Some of those who I care about most were hurting me, even though they had no idea what they were doing to me. It was all just because I was scared and distressed. I hated myself. I hated who I had become. I hated how I thought, and felt. It was just a big mess.


I'm still being hurt now.. but God has shown me a new light. He's shown me how faithful He is. He's shown me this by his everlasting love and care for me. I was being let down my Satan for so long, and it wasn't until December that I pushed Satan out of this. I'm still healing.. I still struggle with fear and depression but I know now that God's always with me. He will always give me the strength to get out, if I just submit to Him.

With all that said, I want you to analyze your life. What's causing your fear? One of my other friends is very upset right now, because she's afraid of what will happen between her and this other boy. She likes him, but she's so caught up in hopes that he liked her back that everything slightly negative lets her down into depression and doubt. In her case, fear of rejection is holding her down from what God's love can give her.
My mom is very scared of finances right now. She's angry with how difficult things are right now. She's afraid that we won't be able to pay for anything if God doesn't work His magic right now. Don't you understand?! You can't always assume God will answer prayers right away. He will answer them on His time.. not yours! Sure, it might be hard for awhile, but He's got another plan. Honestly, do you think God will let us go bankrupt and lose our house, and lose all our ability to get medicine and gas for my dad? NO! God's faithful, even when you aren't.
I've talked to my mom about this before.. I asked her why she doesn't have faith? Why does she let this kind of stuff take over her attitude? I don't even fully understand her excuse... It's a mom thing, I guess. That doesn't mean that faith is impossible though... anybody, and everybody, should have faith.
You cannot accomplish your goals by yourself. You cannot meet your needs if you do not have complete faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, who has control over anything.

I know someone who's struggling with the fear of losing a friendship. I've got a friend who has the fear or being "disowned" my her mother. I've got a friend who has the fear of not being loved by a boyfriend, or guy.
You see what I mean? Fear is everywhere, and it controls the life of everyone at some point, which is why this is very important to me. It's very important that I help and encourage others to let go of their fears too, and built a personal relationship with Christ so they will be ready to face the devil each time he tries to throw them off course.

Think about this.. and pray. Ask God to take those fears from you. Maybe you have a fear that you've held onto for years, perhaps from your young childhood. Maybe you have a fear that you just got, because something tragic happened. Maybe you have a fear that just "randomly" came because the thoughts of it happening scares you... or maybe the thought ot it not happening scares you.
Just honestly pray.. ask God to take those fears. Ask God to push Satan out of the picture. Ask Him to give you strength and faith to last you for a lifetime! Just come close to God.. don't give up on Him. Build that everlasting relationship with God, that's worth more than life itself!!


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Matthew 6:34
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own.

2 Timothy 2:11-13
Here is a trustworthy saying:

If we died with him,
We will also live with Him
If we endure,
We will also reign with him.
If we disown Him,
He will also disown us,
If we are faithless,
He will remain faithful,

for he cannot disown Himself.

John 16:24
Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.

John 16:33
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

1 Peter 1:7
These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what he hope for and certain of what we do not see.


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Heck, I'll add lyrics too. They're powerful.


Stand in the Rain - Superchic[k]
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She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone,
feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear,
the tears will not stop raining down
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[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain
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She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down.
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[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

That was amazing Katie its really gunna help someone in time coming or God wouldnt of told you to write it